Frivolous Scribbles: Februari 2013

In Poem,

When You Woke Up

Every night is a long one

Since you've been gone

I can't help to feel alone

Far away where I call home

I'll leave my eyes open

Even if night has fallen

I will not move from here

Where you felt so near

So when you woke up in the morning

And you started missing me like I do

I'll be here to keep on waiting

Waiting for nothing unless you

When you're fast asleep I'll still be awake

Drown in deep trying to fix my mistakes

Cause you're my sweet dreams coming true

I just hope I'm not a nightmare for you

a pair of eyes staying alive,

Andri Kurniawan

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Cloudle

In Poem,

Still Burning

Your fire stabbed my heart

I feel all warmed up inside

But I shouldn't believed at the first

You shine like summer stars

It cover up my scars

But I shouldn't drink at my thirst

You started the flame and I took the blame

You burn the things down but then you're gone

You played it all a shout but I'll never put you out

Cause I'm still burning inside

My heart was still a charcoal

You flick your fingers and start the flame

And then you're letting me fall

For you it's not more than a game

You can't never ever heal my burn

You can't never ever make my world turns

Even if you're the light for me

You started the flame and I took the blame

You burn the things down but then you're gone

You played it all a shout but I'll never put you out

I will still be all burned up inside

a fire you can never extinguish,

Andri Kurniawan

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Cloudle

In Poem,

A Cricket

You locked me up outside my home

While you're fast asleep I've been feeling all alone

Will you ever hear my call?

You left a note on the window

I know a lie that forced me to go

I was shouting when the night falls

I will never cry again

Cause nothing can erase this pain

I was singing your name in fears

But it's just music to your ears

Will you ever wake up in the night?

I tried to find you every morning

One more time please let me inside

I can't stand this horrible feeling

I'm just a cricket to you

Singing songs that delivers you to sleep

All of the times being true

I'm nothing more than a pest in your deep

a night life you created,

Andri Kurniawan

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Cloudle

In Random,

You seem fine these days, I’m just glad I could still watch you from far away. I pretended to go home first just to see you one last time every day. I was looking at your eyes before you noticed and I turned away. And I still can’t forget you, someone who made my sky turns gray. I still remember the starry summer sky when you said goodbye, as well as the sparkle in your eyes. How I denied reality, how I ran away, I am a loser a person could become.

Every time we talk, we’re just gonna fight again and I can’t stand to bother you more. If only I can speak to you one more time, but you were gone and I just can’t think straight. So, I wrote this letter with the things that left unsaid in my head, hoping you will read it, hoping you will not care a bit.

It’s been some time since I last met you, I can’t find you anywhere. If only I can speak to you one more time, I’ll be okay. Since that day, I've been having problem sleeping. Not because I can’t fall asleep, but because I always had a dream about you every night and every morning I woke up to, I’ll be missing you.

I think I've been losing my balance ever since. Like this very afternoon, I fell in the classroom when I’m just walking. These heavy lids need some serious sleeping but I don’t want to miss you again, I don’t want to dream about you but I need to sleep. I just don’t know what to do anymore.

I hope you know I didn't want you to care, because it hurts to know how you break your promises. I just hope you still remember me and even though it is over for you, it is not for me.

a letter for you,

Andri Kurniawan