Anais, are you okay?

I'm sorry, I think I've been running away from my dreams. I have to chase you from the start again, right from the beginning. I will run with all the strength I've left inside, even if it takes me 9 years or so. I just wanted to see you, even if it's the last thing I can do, I will still see you. So, wait for me, Anais, wait for me like I've been waiting for you.

When was the last time you cried? I forgot the last time I can actually understand you. What do you want from me? Every step I took feels like I was walking on a landmine. Do you want me to take off my mask for you? But, I can't seem to bring myself to worsen your problems. We are in ruins, and you should have noticed, but you didn't. Are you sleeping peacefully right now? Well, I am not, but thanks for making me more confused. Do you want me to continue on being like this? Do you want me to jump off a cliff? Do you want me to hang myself in my own room? I don't even know anymore. Was everything just another lie? Because if it is, you just murdered me again.

Are you okay? Because I am certainly not.

Sweet dreams, Anais.