It’s better if I don’t know my parents than having a family that didn’t want me like this, it’s heavier to be an unwanted child. Nobody will ever understand, they’re just gonna care to what’s important for them, and I’m not precious to anybody. If somebody does care, they should have seen it in my eyes already, but they’re just all talk and no different.

It hurts real badly, to do something you never agreed to do... just so you can eat for today, you can take another breath, to keep on living a life you didn’t want to have anymore. I never ask to be chosen, I just want to live a normal girl’s life, with just my real mother and my sister...

I created this land, where everyone can live evenly happy. Those who work hard will earn what they want, nobody will be born rich nor poor. But I know it was impossible from the beginning, this kind of life will just end up as another dream. And I end up trapped here, inside the world that I alone have created. Crying for tears that will not reach the earth forever.

But I know I’m not the only dreamer. I hope someone will save me from this land I created, and sees through my eyes that I’m not okay deep inside this smile. I am not alone. A land will rise above hopes and dreams, where everyone can live evenly happy, not to smile when they don’t want to. But I can’t return to the reality now, not after I betrayed everybody when I left. I just wanted to be alone now.